I can't believe its been three months.
Some days it seems like an eternity ago I said my good byes.
Other days, it seems like yesterday.
We are doing well. Settling into a routine of sorts.
Work is going great. Trying to learn everything as quickly as I can. But there is just so much to learn. Going from working nights at a hospital to days at an insurance company is a big change. Thankfully, I have amazing co-workers and a great leadership team that has been so helpful.
The kids are having a blast this summer, but not without ups and downs. They are meeting and making new friends, spending most days swimming, been to the beach quite a few times, not to mention Six Flags.
Riley has probably had the hardest time settling in. He had a lot of friends in Rittman and was established on his sports teams. He is my kid who thrives on routine. Its been tough for him, but he seems to be doing better every day. Last week he was in a flag-football camp. He enjoyed it, but definitely missed full-tackle. Hopefully in a few years he can get back on a team and play again.
Rhianna has made quite a few friends and has found a grandma/mom figure who has taken Rhianna under her wing. The two are inseperable and Rhianna has blossomed with her friendship. She helps in the kitchen at church as often as possible and is becoming well known for her constant smile. Rhianna is in a drama club this summer and has three parts in the musical they are putting on. I can't wait to see her perform for the first time on Friday.
Reagan, my little roll-with-the-punches guy, has fit right in. He has a couple little friends and has said he loves it here. I love watching him at church with his little friend, two little blondies bopping around with their eyes twinkling. He was in a Lego/Robot class last week and is in a engineering/building class this coming week.
Housing? We are working on getting into permanent housing. It has been quite the unexpected journey, but again as so often in my past, I have been exactly where God has wanted me to be. We are working, with the emense help of others, to remodel a house that we will soon call our own. I can't wait to be settled into a house that is ours and that is large enough to have company stay with us.
How is it really going?
I wasn't sure how much to write about how I have been feeling. I have wanted this for so long (21 years!!!) and I know that God wants me here...so why am I feeling what I'm feeling? I don't know. But it seems like the more I fight it, the worse it gets. But I'm homesick. And oddly enough, not for the things one might think.
Its the little things that get me.
I miss the secret little hugs my niece would give me.
I miss hearing her little sister giggle in my ear.
I miss my friends at the hospital, and knowing we are all scattered with the closing of the hospital makes it so much harder.
I miss the sounds of the helmets and shoulder pads hitting each other during football practice...knowing this is the time of year that practice and conditining starts.
I miss stopping into my Grandparents and grabbing a few dozen eggs and chatting with them
I miss my family.
It helps to write this. It helps to acknowledge that its okay to be lonely. Its okay to be tired of all things new. Its okay to cry when I think of everything in Ohio. It doesn't mean I'm not where I'm supposed to be. It doesn't mean I'm not doing what I'm supposed to do. It doesn't mean I'm not happy where I am. It simply means I have a lot that I love in Ohio, and for that I'm thankful.